I have been under tremendous pressure to start writing again. You know it's been long when you cant remember your password to the blog site and have to create a new one altogether. The urge to write has been there for a while, that nagging feeling that just seems to grow with each passing day. Today seemed like a good day, for no apparent reason.. but what the hell. I was also thinking about what to write. It's almost like I am out of practice. Too bad there isn't a 'back to work' crash course when it comes to something like this. But I am going to make an attempt neverthless.
So, I have been feeling a little disconnected with myself for a while. I have been observing less, pondering over the irrelevant and wasting my time in short. Now that is surprising considering my need to be self aware at all times. What is even more surprising is that I haven't felt the need to reconnect with my inner self. That part is also scary. I have been too busy doing things that do not matter. Perhaps they do matter, but not when I ask my favourite question "Is this going to matter in 2 years from now'. And that is the reason I am back to my blogging. Ofcourse I don't need a reason to start writing.
I like the fact that at this particular moment I have 27 things going in my head, wanting to come out, wanting me to type about them and yet I can't seem to channel them. Did I just say I like that? My thoughts are such a chaos right now. I think it happens when they have been kept in isolation for this long, almost bottled up. I think I am excited about how things are going to turn out. I know things will settle down, as they always do in my head, eventually. And I will come across as a little more coherent than this. But is that what I really want? Nah, a little chaos is always more exciting than the calm streamlined processes.
It's almost my bed time and I feel happy and excited to have started this. This is just the beginning of me unravelling my own self..exploring my deepest emotions and connecting with myself on a higher level.
The highlight of the day, I got hooked on to "Eats shoots and leaves", zero tolerance to punctuation.. A book ofcourse.
Going to bed now!
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